“Are you excited?”

That has been the question most frequently asked. And I hesitate every time e1e42101c4a1d59e2862501b9d612995it’s asked. While I know God has called us to Uganda and He has been incredibly faithful and affirming to lead the way for us, our team is excited and encouraging about us coming soon, and we have so many people praying for us on a daily basis, I am still processing through all that it means for us to move across the world…

I am excited to see how God works in and through us. I am excited about what we’ll get to experience and share with our friends, family and support 1920113_809560465733803_6289766143225761940_nteam in the ways God is working around the world. I am excited to share the crazy, silly and challenging stories we’ll have from making mistakes while learning a new culture.

But I’m also mourning what we’re leaving behind. I’m not ready to look ahead without honoring and appreciating the memories and life we’ve shared with 12219584_10153359733893068_2253521648242663962_nso many. I’m mourning our family and friends who mean so much to us – those in our lives who have impacted us to be who we are. I’m mourning my daughter being so far away from her grandparents (blood and surrogate). I’m mourning saying goodbye to such great friends who we’ve shared life with. I’m mourning Adalyn saying goodbye to her best friend, Keona. I’m mourning the relationships that make our life better.

So it’s a paradox of feelings…and I’m okay with that. I’m excited for what God has in store for us while also mourning the impending goodbye to the life we’ve always known.

What I’ve learned over these past few weeks is that it’s okay to have both feelings at the same time. So if you’re reading this and feel the urge to cry, me too. If you have moments of sadness, excitement, fear and uncertainty; me too. God can handle ALL of our emotions and He hears our heart. I am comforted to know that no matter what I’m feeling, God is with me and He understands me. Now, please excuse me while I go cry…

 

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